Thursday, September 9, 2010

I hide in the dark to lose sight and I switched off the remaining light within.

A lot has been going on. Things that are better left untold. This is beyond climbing a steep rocky mountain just to get on top. I am fearless, I can bruise and bleed for my wishes and dreams. What is surface pain when there are things deep in the core within you screaming to be satisfied? To what extent do you go? Will you leave everything you have? Will you sacrifice? Will you kill?

A part of me just died tonight. I had something.... in a blink of an eye it will leave me forever. I want to tell you so much. I want to say I'm sorry. And I love you... and I know it's not fair... It's not fair at all how easy it was to kill you inside. My heart once beated for you. Now here I am again, walking this big world solo... Doing everything for my own dreams and goals... Not a care in the world about who you are, because I'm fearless.... right?

3 comments:

  1. This picture makes me what to jump in it and hug you tight.

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  2. My first thought when I saw this picture was "Wow, the human form is beautiful, and if there was ever an example of why, look at this photo."

    Joey you have a gift that is one in a million. Nude photography that doesn't come off as crudely playing towards some male instinct (as in porn) yet doesn't come off as contrived (as in why is she grocery shopping without any clothes on?) is rarer than a dodo-bird. Don't sell yourself short, you pull it off better than anyone else I've ever seen and frankly it would probably work even if you yourself weren't so darn pretty.

    Keep up the amazing work, bless us with your presence on MFC when you get the chance :)

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  3. Joey's words, comments, thoughts, as noted here and elsewhere, complimented by a unique artistic approach is POWERFUL.

    How can one have thoughts and reflect so well in words. So many, admire the reflection of the written word as pictured in a view of beautiful artistic work.

    Think about the underlying feelings and thoughts presented so well here. I see the emotions of a person with conflict. Alone. Not knowing what to do.

    The paragraphs above and elsewhere in this blog hit me very hard. I've been wanting to post comments for so long. It is difficult, very difficult. Each day I think of this, read Joey's words again, and my writing ability and thinking ability suddenly goes away.

    Joey has presented emotions and thought provoking words that has floored me. I applaud Joey. As I write this, I'm barely able to think about what I'm writing. Difficult to see through the tears. Fighting back difficult emotions.

    This is admirable of Joey to begin this blog. It must have been very difficult to write those words. I understand the words and photo representation of what could be. It is gone. Never to come back.

    Relating to the freezing of time, one second has been frozen in time within my brain. I do not have a physical picture, but I can describe the Month, Day, Year, Hour, Minute, Second, every detail of that second is etched in my mind. It will never go away.

    It is a Polaroid in my mind. It was the day I died. The day I died inside. My life was stolen, my emotions, my feelings, my heart - all left me. Leaving me with a still picture of time.

    This is what Joey presents so well. So creative. So Unique. So understanding. So moving. So powerful.

    I see and read your mind, feelings, emotions, worry, hesitation, and the real Joey.

    Thank you for taking this huge step to create a blog and for being you. You are a true, genuine, caring, feeling person. I see it.

    Thank you, Joey.

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